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[Episode 12]
My father was diagnosed with Alzheimer's
two years ago.
He escaped Syria, and was diagnosed in Turkey.
He hid it.
Maybe he didn't want to come back.
Maybe he didn't want to become a burden.
But as his illness got worse, he kept getting lost.
That's how he became an anticommunist prisoner of war.
He managed to get out because he was a doctor.
Everyone found out, didn't they?
I got a call.
They told me to take him away.
That day...
the real war began.
I think my father's memory stopped at the base.
I wonder how Seoul looked as a base.
He stubbornly... started to run away.
Father! Father!
I had a specialty exam coming up and never-ending clinic duty.
And on top of that...
the long and tiresome game of hide and seek continued.
It's okay.
- It came in! - Sir!
Sir!
Clear!
Hurry!
In the end, an accident happened.
Not even doctors with one year of experience... no.
I made a mistake even interns don't make.
- Can you call yourself a doctor? - Interns don't even make this mistake.
Keep this in mind. Patients die because of you.
You're not even a doctor, you punk.
It started that day.
That's when I became useless.
At times, when my father comes to his senses...
he asks me for morphine.
He says he wants to die.
Isn't that funny?
A doctor is asking his doctor son to kill him.
It was because of my father...
That's why I didn't talk Teacher out of it.
I couldn't... no, I didn't want to.
He doesn't have Alzheimer's like my father
but illnesses steal your identity, am I wrong?
Teacher Seol Jae Chan
wants to protect his dignity.
All by himself.
He wants to life his life the way he wants until the end.
Could that be better?
Instead of seeing himself crumble, just like my father...
maybe this method is better, even if it means a shorter life.
You were right.
It's possible...
that I'm not qualified to be a doctor.
How did it go? Have you convinced Seol Jae Chan yet?
- No. - He's been discharged for a while.
If you drag it out, won't you miss your opportunity?
We have no choice. Don't be too disappointed.
There will be more opportunities for you to complete your thesis.
It's me.
Is the deal... still valid?
Who was that?
Song Eun Jae is becoming more entertaining.
- Thank you. - Travel safety.
Yes.
Hello?
Who is this?
Teacher, I'm here.
Teacher. Teacher!
Teacher! Teacher!
Teacher... Teacher.
Teacher!
Do you know where you are?
- Who... - Doctor Kwak brought you here.
He left for a moment to make a call.
Anyway, thank you.
I had such a bad stomachache.
But I feel better now.
So, I'll...
Are you going to leave again?
This is just a temporary solution.
If you don't get real treatment...
it will get worse.
- That's why-- - In November...
I'm going to publish a book of poetry.
I'm still missing many poems, so I have to keep writing.
Sir.
I've been serially publishing this essay
so I can't just cut if off.
That's not respectful to the readers.
And, more importantly
I agreed to go on an autumn field trip with the kids.
Six months.
That's how much time you have to write poetry and teach children.
You can only do it for six months, no matter how much you want to do it.
- And if you're unlucky-- - Three months.
I could have three months left.
Three months is a long time.
If I die on an operating table
it's a very long time to miss out on.
He wants to be discharged.
He wants us to hurry.
He needs to catch the first ferry...
so he can make it for class.
Are you...
still unwilling to convince him?
I'm not saying his dignity is not important.
However...
Is it more important than his life?
It's the same sky, and the ocean was always here.
But it seems different from yesterday.
It's very different indeed.
If I'm a doctor... If I have the right to be a doctor
I can't go along with you like this.
If I can't convince you, I should kidnap you...
and send you into the operating room.
Hyun.
Doctors need to fight rather than have sympathy.
Death is failure.
Death... is failure, no matter what people say.
That's why if I'm a doctor... If I'm a real doctor...
I can't hastily accept a failure like this.
I shouldn't accept it, but fight until the end.
Why do you think death is a failure?
It's something that comes to everyone.
How is it a failure?
Death isn't a failure, it is the conclusion of life.
And I've chosen this conclusion.
It's not like I'm not scared at all.
I'm okay.
I left my wife in the other world for 10 years.
As a shy woman, she probably didn't make any friends
so she must have been lonely by herself.
I...
want to go to her now.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry and thankful.
These eyes... always looked at me and worried about me.
At times, these eyes were more hurt than I was.
That's why, I didn't feel like I was sick at all.
It's possible...
It's possible, Hyun...
that your eyes
which reflect the sympathy you have for your patients
will become your best medical asset
out of everything you can offer.
Every day, when the sun sets, I walk to the trees.
Every day, when the sun sets, I walk to the river.
Every day, when the sun sets, I walk to the mountains.
Walking to the trees, river, and mountains when the sun sets
- is a beautiful thing. - We caught it!
As the sun sets, I long for the person I love
and I walk toward the person I love. There's nothing more beautiful
in this world.
What are you doing?
It's a book of poetry. Do you read poetry often?
It's been 14 years and 8 months.
I see these are all Teacher's poems.
I heard this from someone.
If you want to convince someone, you have to understand them first.
- What do you think? - I'm moved.
But it's not more important than his life.
- Where are you going? - I told you.
It's not as important as his life.
- Leave him alone. - No, I can't do that.
Why do you want to operate so badly?
Why are you so obsessed with it?
If a doctor wants to save a patient... do they need a reason?
I know there's another reason.
What else should I say? Aren't you sick of this?
- There's another reason. - Fine, I'm materialistic.
That's why I really want to go back to Seoul
- and complete my thesis. - Stop lying.
If you need it for your thesis, why did you offer it to Doctor Kim?
As long as you can operate, and they provide you with the best staff
you said he can have the credit.
Why do you want to operate so badly?
My mom died.
Because I wasn't there.
But right now, I'm here in front of the patient.
She could have lived...
She could have lived, but I...
I... cut off my mom's chances...
I cut off her chances of living.
I won't make that mistake again.
The patient is still alive
so there's still hope.
That's why I can't give up. I won't.
If I give up...
It wasn't your fault.
Teacher Seol Jae Chan wanted me to give you this.
What is this?
It's his organ donation declaration.
He said... he wants to donate his body to you.
He's sorry he won't have the surgery.
But he wants to contribute to your research.
This is what Teacher Seol Jae Chan said.
Death...
isn't failure, but the conclusion to life.
What do you think, Doctor Kwak?
I'm not sure yet.
It's a difficult question.
As long as we're doctors...
we will continue to face this question.
The baby sharks are cute, yes they are.
They're baby sharks.
The mother sharks are pretty, yes they are...
Very good!
Goodness, thank you for coming all this way.
Goodness.
We have to go all the way to the village center.
But his knees are very weak.
It hurts a lot, doesn't it?
I'll give you some medicine.
[Hospital Ship - Infirmary on Land]
Geez. Hello, welcome everyone!
- Hello, it's been a long time. - Hello.
- Are you okay? - Be careful.
- Thank you. - Yes, have you eaten?
Please take your time. Geez, let me help you.
Breathe out.
So, when did it start?
Geez, here. Drink it all, okay?
Please come in. This way.
Geez, I feel much better. Where does it hurt?
- It's my waist. - How did it happen?
Hello, ladies! Let me introduce Nurse Yoo Ah Rim!
One, two, three, four! Yeah, yeah, yeah...
What's wrong with my age?
Does age matter when it comes to love?
Grandmother, remember to take your medicine, okay?
You too, okay?
Yes, Doctor Song.
It's not in your bag?
It's not. If anyone is free over there...
Never mind. I'll go there.
Doctor, we're going on a trip.
They said a ship can carry this entire bus.
- Wow. - We're taking this bus to Seoul.
You must be excited.
You're going on your trip, just as planned.
- What about your condition? - Doctor Kwak is taking care of me.
No, I'm already on the bus.
Yes, I'm on my way there.
Huh? Manager Choo went that way.
Doctor Song.
What's going on, Doctor Song?
Doctor Song. Doctor Song!
Hurry up! Let's go!
What do we do?
Hurry! What is this?
Min, come out. Yes, it's okay. It's okay.
Doctor Song, please look after him. Yeah, it's okay. It'll be fine.
That's right.
- Mom! - He's over there.
Where does it hurt? Breathe out for me, okay?
That's right.
Very good. Hang in there, okay?
Tell me where it hurts.
- Yes, very good. - Teacher, are you okay?
Yeah, I'm fine. Go and help the kids.
Hurry. Go on.
Doctor Song.
- What about the coast guard? - Helicopter in 30 minutes.
The boat will take an hour.
The triage is almost finished. There aren't many urgent patients.
Nurse Yoo, please put a neck brace on this patient.
- Yes. - Doctor Kwak...
What is it? What's wrong?
- It's nothing. It's dislocated. - We should put it back in.
Please take care of the secondary and tertiary patients.
They are having difficulty breathing. It could be a collapsed lung.
Hurry.
Let me look at your arm.
- Let's take care of the patients first. - You're a patient too.
If the dislocated joint cuts off the blood supply, you could lose your arm.
- You don't trust me? - Have you done it before?
Many times.
- Then-- - Hang on.
I told you I've done it many times before.
- Geez! - Geez!
Doctor! Doctor!
Hey, be careful!
Sir, where does it hurt?
Sir!
It's like my insides are flipped inside out. It feels like they're coming up.
Doctor!
Wait, Doctor Song! What happened to your arm?
- We'll slowly lay you down. Help me. - Wait a minute.
- Hey, over here. - Let's lay him down.
It's okay. Let's see your teeth.
Milk. Nurse Yang, open all the bags and look for milk.
Yes.
Geez.
- Unbutton his shirt. - Yes.
What in the world?
Captain! Captain!
What is it? What's wrong with my stomach? What is it?
What happened? Is there a problem?
Yes.
Is it severe?
- I can't say it's not. - Doctor.
Then, am I going to die?
Will I die?
No, that won't happen. Saline solution.
It's the doctors' job to save their patients.
Isn't that right?
Sir, you're very lucky today.
You met a skilled surgeon. Take a deep breath.
Then, shall we begin?
What can I help with?
We're going to make a patch. You understand what I mean, right?
Please get it ready.
Hang in there, okay?
- Hang in there for a little longer. - Here.
- Hold the gauze! - Yes.
Let's tape it on.
Hang in there.
One more!
Get him fluids and make him first priority for transfer.
Yes.
Hey, come over here!
Where is San? Have you seen San? I can't find San!
- Excuse me... Hyun! - Hurry.
- Yes. - He's not here! San isn't here!
- San isn't here? - No.
San! Kang San!
San!
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[Thank you, Poet Kim Yong Taek for allowing us to use your poetry.]